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5.
This odd man was, without a qualm,
By turns enraged, banal, and calm;
Adept at patience, yet quick panic
Metamorphosed him to manic
Thoughts and acts (which he'd observe
With careful eyes and cautious nerve).
He'd wonder & be thrown to doubt
And send in help to dredge it out
Of sludgy rubbish, self-concocted.
But neat as a pin
Once he fell in
He was out in an hour (he'd clocked it).

6.
What he might have been is lost. Sadly,
His hybris bloomed—evolved—imperiously.
This hauteur he needed very badly
But moreso needed to be taken seriously.

7a.
Energy, health, physics do not matter; he's
More concerned with how his boyhood flowered.
His life is run on tiny batteries:
How else could such a paradox be powered?
How else a brave heart could be such a coward?


7b.
He cannot keep the music out of mind:
A Gurdjieff quiet never seems to fall.
Slim peace is shredded serially by cosmic
Noise behind his eyes and brutal grind
Without—how can he know and be at all?

7c.
How mad we are to daily tilt with streams
Of incident that warp this culture fast
To atrophy, hew the good deeds down, cleave hilasmic
Hopes of simple people into rhymes
Of cheese logs, wells of greed, drained
Blank mortifications leading at last
To death's turnstile; the sheen
Of life disused rubs off, stained.
(Life's oxygen erodes the spring of cork.)

7d.
A beat of wings, a beat of skin, thin dreams
Stretched: drumhead parallels the heart, green
With joy, but steers it on a separate fork
Off course, into the dunbrown culvert, a mud
Of splintered bone, a common slough of blood
And air.